come to think of it, 1 year is really fast
y1s1 results happened but i had to pick myself up from there. it moved on to even more advnced shit which i had poor control over except maybe for IT and FM lmao. i especially fked up at bizops and acct and it still remains today fml. i guess IT proj was the only good thing which helped me in my blog undertaking–it was partly because of this that i started using a blog and insta to promote it.
internship: it was a last minute thing but i’m still thankful to have gotten it even though it sounded shady af at first. knwoledge gained was really useful despite insurance being confusing. i tried my hand as an agent but realised it wasn’t the one for me–too lazy to get out and do anything lmao. although i handed in my licence just last month, it was informative on what insurance plans to get in the future. not to mention the friendships in ace 8: thnak you guys for accepting who i am and its quite unreal how we still keep in touch–marina bay carnival was not bad but the mach 5 ride was one insane ride, good to ride once for the experience but not multiple times lol. msia was the bombz and i missed the times at psuedo work.
nbsfoc: fk i really missed the days of planning and gg for trial camps. on one hand it was a relief when the finale night started but i realised that the effort that we spent over the past year planning for it was finally over. from coordinating the catering, carrier bags, keeping an eye on the campers etc it was tough work, tho i was really carried by the more capable members. it was also cool going for our thanos photoshoot which happened to be the day before my m9 paper. the juniors were quite onz as well although sadly cliques have formed rather quickly and people are drifting apart…anyway that’s not our problem anymore. it feels really different gg through camp as a participant and a exco member, you see how things come together while you’re just having fun playing the games back then.
y2s2: a whole new set of challenges, with the actuarial mods. this is harder than i expected despite my supposed strength in that area fml. and it really bugs me to see how some ppl are way better than you and you ask yourself why you aren’t at that level? i guess i got so overwhelmed by everyone’s smartness that i didn’t feel comfortable with anyone in the class, which actually pretty sucks since you’re on your own. fortunately i had LY w me during tax which made each 4hr lesson all the more bearable. results are out soon and i have pretty low expectations…doing well would be a bonus. it also cued the start of looking for the PA during the summer break and its really hard to get a internship nowadays..i have no fking idea how some ppl managed to clinch winter posns.
handball: never the best keeper out there and always eclipsed, however this sem was a little different as the exchange students we had were more proactive and made trg sessions more interesting. last year was pretty boring tbh. we also had a trg camp, unlike last year though i got injured halfway. it was really good playing CS and watching Sausage Party [its a surprisingly highly-rated movie lmao].
this yr has been a challenge in maintaining and forging relationships. i never got close to ppl i wanted to and it’s hard in reaching out to others as well, not to mention seeing so many ppl getting into relationships. deep down idk whether i’m ready for one though as there is much effort to but put in maintaining one, having seen birthdays planned by the other halves and etc. at this stage idk what to expect anymore
spiritually i am not the strongest as well, having doubted and being unsure of what i believed in. recently i have started reading religious texts from other religions as a form of challenge ie to keep myself informed. reading wise, i finally read harry potter for the first time and i saw why ppl fell in love w it. war and peace was one thick shit that i won’t touch again. divergent series wasn’t that great tho. the talisman by stephen king was quite fascinating imo. i also managed to watch the HP films and LOTR and i guess i can appreciate it more?
crazy how 1 year is over just like that. 2018 has a whole new set of challenges and experiences and i hope i can go on exchange/get internship/other half/more views/better personal development etc fk its too much to handle